A little update

The more time I spend with her, the more I know that she isn’t perfect but she is perfect for me… 

Brick wall

 The problem with writing here now is, for a moment aku rasa aku nak tulis. Nak curahkan semua benda yang ada dalam kepala yang sarat dengan memori dan kenangan. 

Tapi when I started writing, the fucking drive went away. 

What the fuck is going on again? 

Amnesia and Deja Vu

 Some years ago at this hour, around this time, I used to be on the phone or texting someone. 

We'd talk, laugh and flirt. At one point we even wrote poetries together. I will write a verse and she'll write another verse and so on. 

Hidup aku during that time, beautiful. I found someone who can save me from myself and the world and I guess she found the same thing. 

But then again, we can't always save each other forever. 

That's it for now. 

Payah

 Started trading again but it is hard after 2 years of hiatus. 

Re-entered January this year but exited everything sebab aku stress. Benda yang aku buat hari ini mengingatkan aku tentang keadaan aku in 2018-2019, boy that was tough. 

I lost a lot of things masa tu. Diri sendiri, cinta. Semua hilang macam debu ditiup angin dan benda tu masih terasa sampai sekarang. 

Opera

Life is a lot better now compared to a few years back. By a few years bukanlah lama sangat.

I suffered a lot in 2018 and 2019. Barely had enough to survive, it was sad. 

I lost a lot of things, money, people, love, myself. Orang yang faham apa yang aku lalui most probably cuma ayah.