You held my hand tight. I still remember when we were on the couch, doing nothing. I enjoyed having you with me. Our fingers were interlocking like the emotional attachment we had.
"Kenapa muka you sedih?", she asked me.
This happened when I was younger. 2008 to be exact. My life was a mess. I was in love with a girl who at that time was dying, literally. I was just a 19 year old boy who found the love that I need and it was about to be taken away from me.
Aku jawab, "nothing, I am just enjoying my time with you". She smiled dan aku boleh lihat tiba-tiba air mata perlahan-lahan jatuh.
During that time, she had exactly 4 months to live due to a terminal cancer. Aku habiskan masa 9 bulan bersama-sama dia, to make her and myself happy. We both knew that this moment wont be for long so we made the best out of everything. Appreciate each other's presence, telling how much we love each other without fail.
"I have something to say", sambil dia mengesat air mata.
"When I am gone, can you please carry on with life and not be sad?"
It's 2014 now, I am over everything. I have moved on with life.
Cuma kadang-kadang aku duduk seorang diri dan terdetik dalam hati aku...
"Things wont be this way if you were here".