Perjalanan meneroka perkara-perkara absurd dalam diri sendiri

This is what I want to do.

Reality is something that we can't cheat. Cheating reality is like making a fool out of yourself. Atau dalam kata lain, cuba menipu realiti menunjukkan betapa bodohnya kamu kepada diri sendiri. You know when this happens, you will be laughing at yourself or more likely yourself will be laughing at you.

Aku cuba lari, campak diri sendiri, lakukan perkara lain sebagai ganti untuk tidak menulis dan akhir sekali aku cuba beritahu diri aku supaya berhenti menulis. Because writing is just not my thing or its not my thing anymore. But the reality remains that way, I won't be happy if I'm not writing.

Sekarang aku ada satu permintaan daripada mother nature, kosmos or what the bloody hell you people call it.

Give me some fucking thing so I can fucking write. I mean really write.

Titik tolak, tolak titik...

Eureka, Aphrodite, muse, inspirasi, idea, cahaya dari langit, mentol atas kepala.... Semuanya dalam perjalanan.

Ini maknanya aku masih ada masa untuk simpan semua perkataan aku sebelum menjadi santapan nafsu kamu semua.

Dah, sekarang aku nak berlatih jadi rockstar dan kumpul groupies.

Sila email kalau berminat.

Menanti Saat-saat untuk Eureka Lagi

Every now and then, since I started The Plain Melayu, I always ask my self.

Yeah soalan yang sama untuk beberapa ketika, dari pagi hingga malam kadang-kadang untuk hari dan malam berikutnya.

What the hell should I write in this blog?

Its a fucking endless process and this is just a blog.

If I make my living by writing, there's a chance that I'm going to be crazy thinking about the next book and the book after the next book and the book after the after next book and so on.

Tapi kamu semua dapat lihat, aku gila kalau tak menulis, masih gila bila menulis dan kalau ada buku? 

I'm still going to be the same guy with word madness, plus fame of course. Nowadays they really look up to crazy and famous people no?

I promised them this

Beberapa perkara yang pasti dalam hidup, hidup aku. Gitar, muzik, buku and clearly words.

Lose one of those and I'll be lost...

Its been a while, dan dalam masa aku mengasingkan diri dalam ruang lingkup aku atau dalam kata lain my 'inner world', aku masih baca email-email yang orang hantar. They were asking whether I am going to quit writing or perhaps bullshitting in this dark space that I created. This evil and full of darkness blog.

And I ended up promising them, that I would be back writing once I've got my guitar.

So here I am.

Oh ya, blog ini, this fucking blog never paid for the guitar. But there's always next time.