*Taps on Mic* Testing 1, 2, 3

Is anyone here at all? I know people are using a lot of other platforms like twitter. Aku tak boleh menunjukkan emotional nudity dekat tempat tu sebab manusia cepat keliru. Tapi di tempat ini aku selamat atau mungkin aku selamat.

Banyak benda terjadi sejak aku mula menulis pada tahun 2008. Aku tulis, aku padam, aku tulis dan aku padam.

Dosa aku yang paling besar pada diri sendiri is deleting all my blog post since 2008 because... Well because of that stupid love, tapi ini cerita untuk hari lain.

Dalam masa 11 tahun semenjak aku mula menulis, banyak benda dah terjadi. 11 fucking years and I am still here, trying to figure out what works best for me. Dalam masa 11 tahun tu aku ketawa, menangis, tanggung rasa berat di dada. My eyes sparkled with joy and soaked in tears, I have met my fate and became other people's fate.

Tapi tidak ada perkara yang lebih mengerikan daripada lupa cara untuk menulis disini.

Hi

So here I am again. Back to square one just the way I was around for years ago.

Ekspresi yang selalu digunakan anak-anak muda zaman sekarang; "fuck my life" right?

Amuk

So I feel the need to write again though I know not many are reading but what the hell, this time it is for me, not you guys anymore.


So... Where do I start?

Meeting

In a meeting, I used a phrase "let's address the elephant in the room". 

Seorang kawan berbisik kepada aku:

"How do you address the elephant in the room if there was a real elephant here?"

Aku diam dan hanya tersenyum sambil bercakap dalam hati:

"I am going to fucking shoot it".

Well meetings are never fun. 

Shot

I have my days when I will enjoy the luxury of life while suffering the equal amount of torment.

Hidup aku memang macam ni, ada syurga dengan neraka sekaligus. Which can be confusing at times.

Do I enjoy the heaven or suffer the hell? Which is which?

Hardship in life ajar aku banyak benda. A friend said to me when I was at the lowest point of my life:

"You have hit the bottom and the only way to go now is up" and that's exactly what I did. I moved up and beyond dan sekarang aku sedang sibuk mempersiapkan diri dengan hati ni untuk terus naik. Before I fall and hit the ground again, at least I will be well prepared.

Kadang-kadang you will have everything in life and by everything which is subjective to others, pada aku money is everything. Lepas tu kau ada cinta... Cinta pun everything juga. Love that will make you and/or break you.

All we need to do is sit back and enjoy the ride.

Oh dan untuk kekeliruan samada aku nak berseronok dengan syurga atau neraka dunia?

All I can say is, I'll think about hell when I am dead enough.